Day 11 Report- out of order!

Ok so yest was quite terrible. I started the day with oats, which was a good thing. I then had came to office. had 1-2 cups of herbal tea. have a bowl of chicken soup and bread at lunch time. had ntn after that, but when i reached home i was starved, so i had some chapattis with boiled sprouts with some more green tea. It was after this that suddenly something took over me.

It was as if i was having an out-of-body experience. i started craving for cheese. i found some in the fridge and ate 3 big pieces. then i felt so guilty, i had ntn except some cal burning soup.

I went to my friend rasaalika's house that night, and did something even stupider. got really high, started feeling sick and threw up EVERYTHING including the cheese and rotis and soup. when i started feeling better, i also started getting hungrier. so i binged on bhakri with some cheese and ice-cream with cookies.

I threw up a little of that too. but yesterday was a terrible day, and won't happen again till i get to my aim weight!

Day 8,9 and 10 Report

Sorry for the delay. My grand father was unwell and so I was preoccupied. He's better now tho!

I can't quite remember every detail of my weekend, but i was quite good, except for 2 slices of open face sandwich on Sunday afternoon. But I did go for a swim and a walk. So idin't feel so bad.

Today, I had papaya for breakfast.I realised a little later that it was a mistake, because I started getting soooo hungry!!! So I had another coffee and half a piece of cake. Later, at my friends Nikita Jain's house, I had a khakra and some salad.

I shared my weight loss issue with Nikita, who is a very very effective hypnotherapist. We explored at the subconscious level the various reasons why I am so overweight. She asked me several questions. I don't have the answers yet. I will talk about them as and when I find the answers. There may be some things I cannot share on such a public forum, but I will do my best.

In the afternoon I had some grilled chicken and steamed veggies with my friend Priya at pop-tates. I also had a fresh lime soda (salty) which was very refreshing. Priya and I usually discuss books and music, and this afternoon was not so different. We also planned to take a trip to Goa. But you see, I have rather busy and important friends (taunt to Namrata, Natasha and Bhavika)!

I then went to my cousin's house in the afternoon, where I had some coffee and a few lychies. We also had some bhel with no sugar and no fried sev. It was quite yum actually!

At night, I had two big bowls of soup and some curd.

I have realised now that my diet is going quite well, but I need to start regulating my exercise routine. Maybe I'll do that once my vacation to MALAYSIA is over (wooohooooooo) 

Day 7 Report (+Recipe of Orange and Greens Salad!!!)

It was a good day in general, especially the end!

I had oats for breakfast. It was followed by watermelon mid morning. I then had Jawar Rotis with Tinda, which was quite delicious.

After that my friend Mala convinced me to go to Churchil with her, where we shared a plate of rice and creamy-mushroom gravy with chicken and vegetables. I absolutely LOVED the veggies and HOGGED on those! I didnt feel guilty at all, cuz I basically had boiled veggies there.

Then I went home and rested, after a cup of green tea. In the evening, I had some more tea and decided to go for a swim. but stupid me- I forgot my pass! So with a heavy heart I left, only to get a call from Nemo (afore mentioned Namrata Ganguly). So she and I went back to my house to have some green tea and watermelon.

While she was there, I started on cutting the greens for my salad. It was the most beautiful salad in the world!!! here is the recipe for those who want it:

Spinach Salad with Orange Vinaigrette

2 oranges, zested   (to know how:http://www.ehow.com/video_4790427_make-orange-zest.html)
2 small oranges, juiced or 1 large orange, juiced
2 tablespoons white vinegar
2 tablespoons honey
1 clove garlic, peeled
3/4 teaspoon salt
3/4 teaspoon freshly ground black pepper2-3 tbps extra-virgin olive oil
pre-washed spinach-chopped roughly, lettuce-chopped roughly, carrots- long strips, steamed broccoli, onion greens.

In a blender, combine the orange zest, orange juice, vinegar, honey, garlic, salt, and pepper. Blend until smooth. With the blender running, add the olive oil in a steady stream until combined. Transfer to a container and store in the refrigerator.

To serve, put the veggies in a large bowl. Toss with enough of the vinaigrette to coat the greens and serve.

I also had some clear soup with this, but I could have easily done without it!

Day 6 Report

This diet is obviously a bigger challenge than i thought it would be.

I was so excited about making my salad that I was raving about. I had had a TERRIBLE and tiring day, and I was hoping to go home and make that beautiful salad. It was the high point of my day! I had spent so long last night making the salad dressing right from making orange zest to hand-blending the other things. Only to realise, all its ingredients like the spinach and roasted nachos has been finished off. I had specifically told everyone at home that I've got all these things to make a salad. yet, they "forgot". The same way they "forget" that I need the internet all night, and they "forget" that I have had a late night and need a good night's rest. They even "forget" to read my blog. I don't think my brother even remembers I have this blog.

Apart from that, I had half a bowl of oats in the morning, a sandwich midway, 3 rotis and beans for lunch, a few biscuits and a cup of coffee in the evening, and LOADS of green tea all day.

But for dinner, I was too tired to make a salad once I was back. And my loving family hadn't even made any. so I carved in out of hunger and had rice and daal. The only solice is that it wasn't made in the cooker. It was made in the open, so the starch content was lesser.

Life just SUCKS.

Day 5 Report

Sorry for the delayed report. Didn't have the energy last night.

I've been going low on energy over the last 2-3 days. I've also become exceedingly moody and snappy. But I'm learning that it is a withdrawal symptom, much like stopping drinking and smoking. I guess it is something I will have to work with!

So yesterday I had poha for breakfast. It was delicious, but I learnt an hour later that it is no match for oats, because I got hungry again! So I had a few biscuits. I also had a large cup of green tea.

Yesterday I had a field visit in a municipal school in Scion, which is why I didn't drink as much water as I normally do during the day (dirty bathrooms!). I just had a few sips. For lunch I had a dosa. I also sinned on a few bites of pineapple sheera, but I didn't feel so bad, because I was on my feet all day.

On coming home, I made some salad dressing with vinegar and orange zest (which also I made on my own!). I will make the salad tonight.

I also went to the market and bought almost a truck load of salad ingredients and some vegetables for the house. I am sooooo excited about this!

For dinner I had 4 really small rotis, subji, black masoor daal, and lettuce salad with a spinach dressing.

I did get carb cravings at night. I think the next few days are going to be really challanging (SHIVERS)

Day 4 Report

So today was not all that great. I didn't swim or walk, though i'm planning to go once my i write this blog.

I had oats in the morning, followed by a green apple mid-morning.  I had 3 rotis with bhindi for lunch. Plus I had Pav Bhaji (ref to earlier blog) I had some coffee in the evening. My friend Mala ordered for a pizza at Barista. I got soooo tempted it was unbelievable!

But as I was reaching out, God's angel came dressed as a slut. She wore these really short shorts, and I thought to myself- Gosh, I WANT TO WEAR THOSE SOMEDAY!!! As of now, I'm too conscious to wear shorts even at home! And so, I was saved from the pizza.

I got home, all ready to have soup and salad. My mother had made some delicious tomato soup for me. However, there was barely anything for salad. So I just put together some cucumber, steamed broccoli, lettuce, 1/8 of a beetroot, crushed garlic and onion. I added some Italian dressing, vinegar and 1/2 tsp of olive oil. the taste surprised me! It was FANTASTIC. you guys should try it.

Though the error i made was adding raw onion. So if you want to make it i suggest you marinate the onion for just 15-20 mins in vinegar.

I didn't drink as much green tea as I did yesterday. I had less water as well. Going to change that tomorrow!!!

Pav Bhaji (cling clang cling clang...)

Cling Clang... is the sound of all my Kaching-ed coins dropping to the floor :-(

Ok, so here I am all happy and excited because I've lost a kg. And then i promise my friend Krista to take her to sachinalaya for lunch. so here's what i do: i eat the dabba my dear mother packed for me thinking this way, i won't have to eat anything there. i can just give her company.

But when we go there, the pav bhaji looks so tempting, i cannot resist myself! (cling clang cling clang...).

Feeling so terrible abt it. i keep telling myself, i have just 7 weeks, i CANNOT afford to lose out on a single swim, a single walk, a single healthy meal!

So now, soup and salad for dinner!

Day 3 Report

On day three, my day started with a high carb, low fat breakfast. It is a traditional Saraswat breakfast called KADAMB. It is made of wheat, and steamed in turmeric leaves. I quite enjoy it. though traditionally it is eaten with butter, I ate it with a sweet pickle. i know, not very healthy, but better than butter right? Besides, my grandmother gets rather upset if I refuse traditional foods. So I thought I'd rather eat this steamed dish than some fried bajjis and papads later!

So after breakfast I took a longish walk. I had to go to the bank to do some work there. then i walked further to meet my friend Krista near her house. we took a cab to work together.

On this day, i filled myself up with green tea and warm water (read previous blog- http://projectketaki.blogspot.com/2011/06/great-tale-of-green-tea.html). they did me real good. I was hydrated and full of energy all day long. LOVERLY!

For lunch my mother had packed some delicious tendli (gherkins) that i had with rotis. also, my friend offered me her potato. I wanted to refuse, but i just COULDN'T. so yes, guilty.

After that I had some tea and 3 biscuits  at about 3.30, a cup of black coffee at around 5.30, an apple at 7.

I had a long walk after that, again with my friend Krista. I returned home around 9. I SINNED for dinner. I had lots and lots of rice. i kept telling myself to go for the chapattis, but the moment my mother place that humungous and mouth-watering vessel of rice in front of me, all my self-consciousness blew straight out of the window. i stuffed my face with it, and then felt guilty. so i walked a little more after dinner.

I've come to realise that over-eating is a little like a one-night stand. You start the night(or the meal) with no particular desire for it. In fact, very often you prematurely decide that tonight is never going to go that way. However, in the moment, you feel like that is all you want. After it is done, you want to hang your head in shame, praying that no one you know has seen you, and you wish you could take it back.The difference is, when you have sex, your stomach doesn't ALWAYS bloat up!

Though I must tell you all, I've officially lost a little more than a kg! yay! 1 down, 19 to go!

The Great Tale of Green Tea

Today, I made a discovery- Green Tea! This is one more thing I owe Namrata Ganguly. It has been the best thing i have found since i started my diet 4 days ago!

Green Tea is the most detoxifying drink EVER! Firstly, it makes you sweat almost instantly, in a way that you actually ffel all the toxins leaving your body. It makes you wanna pee too, which i'm thinking is due to the same thing. And secondly, you feel refreshed practically all the time! I almost didn't feel hungry today!

The second thing i did try today was sipping on warm water. Being hydrated all the time seemed to make me refreshed and on my feet (partly of course because i needed to keep going to the bathroom). but guys, this is a fantastic way to control hunger pangs. i don't know how many of you know this, but very often when we feel like a snack, we may actually be thirsty! Isn't that cool?

Will give a more detailed report of the whole day tonight.

Day 2 report- (KACHING!)

Sorry for the delay, but was unable to put up a blog yesterday.

KACHING is the sound made by putting in coins in a piggy-bank. It is sorta like a bonus. So this blog is called KACHING! because it was a pretty awesome day, as I did most things right.

Yesterday was a rather good day. I woke up early in the morn and forced myself to go for a swim (KACHING!). After that, I came back and had a healthy bowl of oats with nuts. (KACHING!)

I then studied for a while. was very tempted to eat a few peanuts, and even got up and went to the fridge. however, with strategic timing my father (who has been pounding me to lose weight for the last 7 years) walked in and i quietly retreated to my sorry chair with a guilt ridden face.

For lunch I had salad and rice and daal and subji. I also had some curd. I think from today onwards I'm going to swith to buttermilk instead of curd. It seems to be better for weight watchers.

Evenings are my weak-spots. That is the time I get bingy. So last evening, as I saw this time approach, I had some diet chiwda and a cup of coffee. After this, I forced my poor brother to come with me to buy sport shoes, so that i could walk more comfortably. I'm still exploring options on what i can do in my weak moments. But an effective thing to do seems to be going out with my brother Kedar Mavinkurve, who is REALLY REALLY supportive towards my new cause. He doesn't allow me to eat anything outside. So we have a lot of fun sans food! (KACHING!)

After this, i went out with Namrata Ganguly, another friend of mine who is very very encouraging (and sometimes nagging ;-), buti love her soooo very much!) ). We tried to go to jazz by the bay for soup and salad. But Sunday nights are so painful! So we went to this place called Kamling in Churchgate. we had some really good chicken wantons and pork dumplings. (KACHING!) And topic of the dinner- The difference between wontons, dumplings, dim sum and momos!

After that we sat at marine drive for about half an hour breathing in the sweet sea breeze. Nemo left, and i took a long walk on marine drive in my new shoes! (KACHING!).

So all in all, it was an awesome day! (KACHING!)(KACHING!)(KACHING!)

Day 1 report

End of Day 1:

I've been pretty good today. been drinking lots of water all day long. Had oats for breakfast, a peach and banana in between, chinese food for lunch, and then ntn till 7:30 which was dinner time. Had clear soup and steamed dumplings got dinner. i did cheat one tad bit thought- found it really hard to refuse this excruciatingly delicious scoop of naturals ice cream. and believe me, i almost did not admit to tht right now! was all prepared to not publish that detail at all. but i think it is really important right now to be honest with myself and my readers.

Could not walk 6 kms. did just abt 4 today. but swimming is TOTALLY ON tomorrow morning. and i also wanna go for a walk in the eve.

Send me prayers ppl!
Ket

Procrastination

The first morning of my project has not been that great. Reason? I procrastinated! I was well aware that i needed to go for a swim. and so i had to wake up early, which also btw i did. but when I came to have some breakfast and leave, I decided to check my fb page! and then I started looking for recipes of clear soups, then started downloading episodes of Desperate Housewives. After all of that, I finally decided to leave onle to realise that my phone was almost dead, so I had to charge it. So here I am, sitting around waiting for my phone to charge. Lesson learnt?  TIME MANAGEMENT.

However, I should give myself (just a quarter) pat on the back, because I had oats for breakfast.

I think I should walk atleast 6kms today!

CHANGE

The last few weeks of my life have been soooo turbulent, to say the least. I cannot explain it yet, because I'm so unsure of what is going on. But one thing has come out of it loud and clear: I DO NOT LIKE MYSELF!!! And that, my friends, the root cause of so many of my problems. Why, you ask? I AM FAT. And I don't mean fat in one of those scrawny-bitchy ways... you know where super skinny bitches call themselves fat to dig for compliments. When I say fat, i mean 30kgs overweight.

Before I continue, I have got to admit, I'm an emotional eater. Every time I'm upset I need food in my mouth. When I'm sad, I need food. When I'm angry, I need food. Even when I feel guilty about eating too much, I need food to get over the feeling! And I genuinely don't like exercise. I enjoy swimming, I love playing badminton. I used to live for kick-boxing at one point. But I hate walking. And I'm so afraid of running because due of my weight, I might hurt my knees.

So here, I want to make a pact. I'm Going to lose 20kgs by September. It is a tall order, I know. But If you aim for the stars you reach the sky right?

And this space is going to be my diary. All my progresses, failures, confessions, will be here. So watch this space! and i need as much support as I can get. So please people of the world- friends, family, strangers, Help me!