CHANGE

The last few weeks of my life have been soooo turbulent, to say the least. I cannot explain it yet, because I'm so unsure of what is going on. But one thing has come out of it loud and clear: I DO NOT LIKE MYSELF!!! And that, my friends, the root cause of so many of my problems. Why, you ask? I AM FAT. And I don't mean fat in one of those scrawny-bitchy ways... you know where super skinny bitches call themselves fat to dig for compliments. When I say fat, i mean 30kgs overweight.

Before I continue, I have got to admit, I'm an emotional eater. Every time I'm upset I need food in my mouth. When I'm sad, I need food. When I'm angry, I need food. Even when I feel guilty about eating too much, I need food to get over the feeling! And I genuinely don't like exercise. I enjoy swimming, I love playing badminton. I used to live for kick-boxing at one point. But I hate walking. And I'm so afraid of running because due of my weight, I might hurt my knees.

So here, I want to make a pact. I'm Going to lose 20kgs by September. It is a tall order, I know. But If you aim for the stars you reach the sky right?

And this space is going to be my diary. All my progresses, failures, confessions, will be here. So watch this space! and i need as much support as I can get. So please people of the world- friends, family, strangers, Help me!